I Feel All Alone

Although I have my friends and family
I feel all alone
In the darkness that engulfs me
No one hears me, or anything I have to say
To get through each day
I put on a brave face
I think this is why people think I am right
Please can no one help me?
Can no one save me?
At home I sit in my room
Looking at past and present photos
Of all my friends back home
They are all happy
Why can't I be that happy?
I sit and wonder why
Is it because I am a fuck up?
I guess I will never know
Listening to music helps
Just listening to the artist's lyrics
Knowing that they came from the heart
Reminds me that they too, have had problems in life
That is my release
That and self harm
In my shitty life that I live
They are the only two things that relly keep me going
Another lonely night spent in my room
I am choosing what song to listen to
All of a sudden
I decide to listen to "Somewhere" by Within Temptation
As the music begins
I am taken into a dream world
A dream world that can never hurt me
I wish I could stay there
"Lost in the darkness
Hoping for a sign
Instead there is only silence
Can't you hear my screams?"
I am suddenly joited out of my trance
As the realization of that song
Brings night home to me
Exactly, at this moment in time how I feel
I really don't wanna feel like this
I long for the wonderful days
The days where I was truly happy
And nothing could make me feel bad
But those days are long gone
And no amount of thinking about them
Will bring me back
From the brink
I long for the carefree days
Where I didn't see the horror of the world
I long for the carefree days
Where I don't feel any pain
I long for the carefree days
Where I was very happy
But what I really long for in my life
Is death
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